I’ve run out of scheduled posts to tide me over my post-separation malaise. Today I actually forced myself to get dressed, put on makeup and do something with my hair. I thought it would be worth sharing this achievement with you.
– Maroon Miss Shop jumper (thrifted)
– Blue jeans from Target
– Gold tone rock ring from ASOS
– Amber earrings (gift from my grandmother)
– Blue suede heels from Tony Bianco
I wore this outfit to do some painful relationship things like cry and write fourteen pages in my journal. Then I also did some nice things like watch Misfits and walk in the park. Obviously, I didn’t wear these shoes for that portion of the day.
I’m not going to lie to you. I feel pretty shitty right now. I thought that getting dressed in something somewhat stylish might help. Ha! How silly of me. When your ex-partner is half a world away and all you want to do is cry and rewind time, it takes more than a well-cut pair of jeans to make you feel better. Oh well, at least I gave it a shot.
It feels so weird to write the words “break up”. I’m not even sure what to call it. I think I’m more comfortable using the term “separated” because at least that gives me hope that perhaps the situation isn’t permanent. I don’t even really know what I should be doing right now. Should I be hoping and praying that we get back together? Should I be ranting and raving and focussing on all of his shortcomings? Should I be pretending to be fine? Should I stay or should I go? I feel like my life is in shambles right now.
So this is probably the ranty-est daily outfit post I’ve ever done. But at least it was honest. Right now I’m just trying to pick myself up and do what I can to move forward, whatever that might mean. And I do believe that I managed a hint of a smile in that last photo. Do you see it? It’s just a little one, but it’s definitely there. That’s something at least.
there is no “right” way to handle a break up. Just focus on your self care and surround yourself with people who love you. ((((((hugs))))))
You’re right (as usual). I’m trying to focus on taking care of myself but all I want to do is curl up in a ball and wail.
Those pants are working for you even if you weren’t feeling it! Looking good. And just give yourself time!
Thanks hon.
I think you’re fantastic. Rant all you need! Feel free to email me if you want to rant further, I promise I’m nice 🙂 and that jumper is rad. It looks like you’re in gryffindor.
Thank you sweetheart. I’d never made the connection between this jumper and Gryffindor house before, but now I’m going to make sure that the next time I wear it, I also wear my Harry Potter scarf.
Burgundy coloured clothes always remind me of Gryffindor! I have a burgandy cardigan with a tiny crest on the chest and I totally feel like I’m winning the house cup.
Hahaha! That’s adorable!